Unwavering Faith

About two years ago, when LB and I were trying to have another baby I memorized James chapter 1. We were having lots of difficulties and I found comfort in the first 8 verses of that chapter. I had faith. But I learned that I had to have unwavering faith or my faith would be worthless. 

James 1:6 But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.
7 For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord.

Wow!  Those two verses really made me think and examine myself to see where I really was in my relationship with God. I believed in God. I had asked Jesus to come into my heart. I believed the Bible was true from cover to cover. But deep down in my heart of hearts did I really have that undoubting trust?  No. There were lots of times I doubted. The devil would sneak his way in and get me to worrying or cause me to wonder. But as soon as I would feel the anxiety creeping up, I would just recite the chapter in my head and I would then begin to feel Gods arms around me again. I was safe and protected. 

Over the last year, while dealing with cancer, I had to put those verses back into practice and exercise my faith harder than ever. In some ways it was easy. I was actively doing things to fight the cancer. I was seeing the doctor every other week. I was taking chemo, I had a double mastectomy, and radiation. And prayer, lots and lots of prayer. Everything I was doing was centered on killing the cancer.  My life was consumed with saving my life. My last PET scan showed everything was clear. But, Now it's over. I am only having follow ups. I'm not actively doing something, (there's no need to now I've already done it) I'm just going on with my normal life. 

Enter the Devil...he's tricky and sneaky and causing me trouble!  Early on after my diagnosis I had come to have peace that I'm going to be ok. I felt the Lord tell me that things were going to be rough for a while but I would survive. I truly have faith that I'm going to be ok. I even told people that I had a peace about it. But now that everything is over the devil is causing me to worry or doubt. Every little  ache and pain sends panic through me and sometimes even fear. So, now here I am reciting James again. Practicing my faith. But today I had a few more verses brought to my attention that I am adding to my memorization. Verses that remind me that I have prayed and God answered. Don't keep going over it again and again. 

 Mark 11:22 And Jesus answering saith unto them, Have faith in God.

23 For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.
24 Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.

God is a God of love. He loves us and he only wants what's best for us, so don't let the devil win. Don't let him cause you to doubt, stand strong. The Lord will protect you. 

Amy